I was running a WalMart errand today when I saw a friend from back home (the growing up "back home"). She has been encouraging me with sweet notes since I've started sharing the pregnancy experience and all it's questions. When I saw her, she graciously offered to be a listening ear if I ever needed it. She shared her stories of similar experience. We chit-chatted and then said our "good-byes."
And, while sitting in the car, munching on my Super Potato Ole's before heading into the store, it hit me. Perhaps it was the beautiful music on NPR that aided. Or maybe it was just exhaustion, emotions and hormones. Or, all of the above (most likely). I wasn't quite an emotional wreck, but I would choke up every now and again (thankfully not on a Potato Ole)...thinking, wondering, hoping, praying.
"God, am I supposed to go through this?" Of course, the answer is "Yes." Everything has it's purpose.
And thoughts of both extremes, a miracle baby or a miscarriage, came flooding through my mind...and I could cry at the thought of both!
And I began thinking of this song, "You are Still God." And I remembered...that whatever happens, God is STILL God. He will not change through this...He, thankfully, will change me. I thought of this verse, "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning." James 1:17
Thank you, God...that YOU will always be the same...and the giver of all good gifts.